Speaking Up for Dignity

Me & My Plural Husbands

Why patriarchal polygamy is actually more like modern-day slavery


Do you recognize me? When the Brown’s sued the state of Utah to decriminalize polygamy, I was the woman in red flanked by multiple husbands in matching frumpy white shirts, thanking God that I live in America, the land of the free.

At the next court date, I might ask Kody Brown, star of the television show “Sister Wives,” if he would like to join our family and become a “brother husband” in the coolest, most creative family in Las Vegas. Assuming he says yes, as a brother husband, he will have to fit into my rotating sex schedule, of course. His voice will join the chorus of frantic men who yell SHOTGUN! every time we have to pile in the car. He’ll be assigned to cook on Thursdays, do laundry for 43 people, and always wear his happy face underwear to remind him to smile no matter what.

Obedience is everything.

christine-marie-flag2Kody might be too overwhelmed to snake the glob of gummy worms out of the toilet, hang with his fellow patriarchs, memorize D&C 132 (the polygamy revelation) or accomplish anything that builds his manly esteem, but when the cameras come around, he will probably explain, with tears in his eyes, what a joy it is to know he is doing God’s will and serving others. The other brother husbands can be trusted to swoon to the media over how liberating it is to have built-in childcare.

These days, when my husbands get jealous of each other, I punish them by giving their sex night away. I usually give it to my favorite husband (who they resent because he is my first husband, aka the King Bee), but the lesser husbands are not allowed to whine. No way. If they do, I will punish them again, maybe by making them a slave to the King Bee husband for the next 6 months. Sometimes I have to publicly humiliate them or play mind games. I wish I didn’t have to do this, but squashing negative feelings is the only way to keep positivity in the house. I have to be obeyed.

My husbands are free to leave me of course. But if they do, they believe they will be tormented by the “buffetings of Satan” until they die, and then will burn in hell. They are reminded about this every Sunday, and they get examples of the horror that befell the other husbands who ran away, so it is deeply ingrained in them that leaving is not worth it in the eternal scheme of things. (Just imagining the “buffetings of Satan” causes children to have nightmares and grown men to shake in their boots.) Since Kody must have had deep convictions to even become a plural husband, he would know he has to endure to the end. After a lifetime of decisions and sacrifices made to prove his worthiness to God, why would he leave and throw it all away now? His brainwashed brain would not even consider it.

Brainwashing Impairs Free Will

Christine Marie at polygamy hearingDr. Kathleen Taylor, in her book, Brainwashing – The Science of Thought Control, states that neuroscience “shows that brainwashed individuals have more rigid pathways in their deep convictions, and that rigidity can make it unlikely that the individual will rethink situations or be able to later reorganize these pathways. The neuronal behaviors of brainwashed people behave so differently, critical thinking is nearly impossible.”

This leaves me in great shape! I can have one husband rub peppermint oil on my feet while another massages my shoulders with cocoa butter while another one serenades me with a few Michael Buble covers and two other husbands work like a team making apple pies in the kitchen. I get to sleep with a different husband every night, and since this will be a special night for that husband, he will perform his very, very best to please me. He’ll shower me with superhuman affection, compliment my matronly body as if I’m an 18-year old with no stretch marks or cellulite, and humble me with detailed descriptions of his vast respect for me as a woman of God. He’ll tell others he is happy because he would rather have 10% of a godly woman like me, than 100% of a worldly woman like Angelina Jolie any day. His goal is to become my favorite husband. He knows I want my husbands to be unselfish, so he’ll suppress his natural physical needs for bonded personal intimacy and he’ll even publicly state in front of cameras that he would gladly welcome another husband into the family if it was what God thought was best.

And as the head and priestess of the family who has more access to God, I get to decide what God thinks is best!

Life can’t get any better than this!

My husbands know they are bound to me forever and they know that I am the one who will determine where they will spend eternity, so that gives me a lot of power. And it causes their brains to find a way to be okay with their abuse.

And the entire psychological manipulation scheme I just laid out – is abuse. This is what patriarchal polygamy does to women, AND IT IS NOT ONLY ABUSE – IT IS ENSLAVEMENT.

stop-polygamy-iconEven if I do not physically abuse them, polygamy is inherently harmful. That was the conclusion of Canada’s Chief Justice Bauman when he made his decision to keep polygamy illegal.

The Evidence, The Evidence

Let me start by reminding you that Canada is not run by Mitt Romney. Canada legalized same-sex marriage in 2004, and they legalized prostitution in 2012, but when citizens and lawmakers sought to overturn the ban on polygamy, after reviewing the most comprehensive judicial record on polygamy ever produced in the history of the world, Chief Justice Bauman declared that there was too much harm to individuals and society as a whole to justify legalizing polygamy.

polygamy-sadIn his decision, Chief Justice Bauman outlined some of the harms:

Regarding Harms to Children

Supreme Court of British Columbia
Section 293 of the Criminal Code of Canada, 2011 BCSC 1588
For a more exhaustive list of documented harms, please visit

The verdict was in.
Polygamy was inherently harmful, and it was fueled by the imbalance of power, manipulation and psychological abuse.

Polygamy could never again be compared to gay marriage as just another example of consenting adults.

Gay marriage is based on love and equality. The partners choose each other, and if a partner wants to leave, there are no eternal consequences.

It is almost impossible to leave polygamy when you are brainwashed to believe it’s God’s will. Neuroscientist and brainwashing expert Kathleen Taylor writes, “A devout believer in God does not hold this conviction in isolation from all his other beliefs; rather, it provides the emotional bedrock for much of his existence. Such beliefs can be extremely hard to change. Changing a strong belief is like cutting one of the main supporting strands: the entire structure of the (neuronal) web may be changed or even destroyed.”

Leaving the system you have been brainwashed to believe is such a traumatic event, it can create psychosis. To make it out alive, you must first navigate your way through a tunnel of terror when the entire worldview upon which your brain is structured is shattered into a thousand pieces of disconnected chaos, held together only by throbbing strands of fear. It would be like running for your life to get away from a crazed madman with a chainsaw, when you hit a wall, so you scramble to climb it, then realize it happens to be the Berlin Wall and 40 soldiers aim their guns at you. And you hear them cock.

I should know. I once believed that polygamy was God-ordained. I bought into all the benefits of the lifestyle you can read on any pro-polygamy web site. Enter a righteous, charming man of God with a polygamist past who was represented to be a prophet (and even had validating documents to boot!) He wanted me for a spiritual wife (read: sex). Using Mormon scriptures and history books, he played on my beliefs and he beguiled me. No sooner had I taken the step of faith and believed I was bound to him forever that I found myself entrapped by the mind games of a narcissistic psychopath.* He delivered God’s word through revelation, and I was compelled to financially support him (and his new wife-to-be) for the rest of my life. To do otherwise would mean all the sacrifices I had ever made to spend my eternity in the presence of God with my children, would now be in vain. I tried a million times to see beyond the fiery wall of confusion and heartache. Like a desperate hunter, I stalked the red flags seeking the information that would enable me to break free from my slavery and my suffering – without sending myself to hell. I begged my ecclesiastical leader, my prophet husband, and my “sister wife” repeatedly to tell me if they were deceiving me. Through their machinations, I was being exploited in ways too unthinkable to describe here, and I was being harmed. They knew this, they all did. Yet without flinching, instead of coming to my aid, they reassured me that my prophet was a true prophet and man of God, and that this was what God wanted for me. I was also told that there were three men watching me at all times to ensure that if I ever tried to escape my circumstances for good, consequences would be enacted towards me and my children. Yes, I could leave but I had to return. My brain throbbed with stress trying to make sense of things, but I couldn’t see the truth. I tried very, very hard to make sense of things. I did. When I took a step towards freedom and truth, the phobias he instilled in me were so strong, my brain just shut down.

Blank. I tried to engage my critical thinking, but I couldn’t get it to kickstart. My brain, exhausted from the confusion, pummeled with false information and excruciating psychological punishments from the psychopath prophet who wanted to own my soul, could take no more. It was exhausted and gave up. There was only one way to survive: just do what I was told, endure the suffering, and hope for a better hereafter. Either that, or commit suicide, something I was frighteningly close to doing. I felt like a slave, but I thought I was free. Kathleen Taylor, in Brainwashing, describes the similarity between brainwashing and torture in that they both seek to dominate the victim. “Successful brainwashing leaves victims unaware of their new-found slavery; they still regard themselves as free, responsible agents. Unless their brainwashing becomes a matter of public knowledge, society will make the same judgment,” writes Taylor.

Coercion is not Consent

Polygamy is not a matter of consenting adults. The imbalance of power in patriarchal polygamy is so staggering, consent to the lifestyle is less valid than a judge who uses his power and influence to threaten to imprison a woman for life if she doesn’t choose to have sex with him “of her own free will.” In law, undue influence involves one person taking advantage of a position of power over another person. It is where the free will to bargain is not possible.

At the time, I thought I chose my circumstances. I thought I was a consenting adult. But I wasn’t a consenting adult. I was a true believer who was deceived and manipulated by a cruel slave master and his crew of fellow ex-Mormons-turned-atheist, most with a criminal record, who were enjoying the fruits of my lifeblood. My ecclesiastical impostor knew that the threat of eternal damnation was more powerful than a gun to my head. As long as he didn’t break character and I still believed, I would never tell. I now understand that when I did what he mandated, I acted not out of consent, but out of coercion. Loyola Law Professor Kathleen Kim, in her paper The Coercion of Trafficked Workers explains that coercion serves to “invalidate any consent that may have been given and to render impermissible any actions derived from the consent.” To survive, I had learned to comply. I almost trained my alternative identity to be happy with it.

And so do the women of polygamy.

Concluding with my Satire

Back to the fictional story:

“Now that I understand how to control people through the imbalance of power, I manipulate my husbands, for their own good, of course. They no longer complain when I mistreat them. In fact, they smile as if they are supportive when I kiss and fawn over my newest husband in front of them, even though I know they are dying inside. I’m proud when they set such a good example for our sons. This way, if Sister Smith, a righteous 57-year old woman of God wants my 18-year old son as a husband, even if it shatters his lifelong dream of going to MIT where he was overjoyed to be accepted into the computer science program, he will give up his own desires for the will of God. He will agree to be bound to her, and only her, forever, even though she can keep bringing home new men.

And so can I. The young men can always say no, but if I ask it and they believe I speak for God, in the end they will consent because it is God’s will.

That’s why you will find me on the courthouse steps, dressed in red, surrounded by my wonderful, supportive husbands who will all be advocating for the decriminalization of the polygamy lifestyle. And they will be smiling, because they know it is God’s will.

When it comes to enslaving people for my own advantage and getting away with it legally, I can pretend that God is the power tool in my back pocket.”

Obviously I am kidding, just turning the tables to put myself in their shoes, but even just writing this disturbs me.

But this is what all the self-proclaimed false prophets do…use their power and undue influence to oppress.

Why would we legalize the oppression of human beings?


DISCLAIMER: Obviously, I don’t really have multiple husbands. I apologize for disrespecting anyone’s religion. But women deserve to treated with equality and respect, and legalizing patriarchal polygamy is not the answer.  Patriarchal polygamy can be a form of modern day slavery. I should know.

For more information about why polygamy is not a matter of consenting adults, read
Selective Amnesia: What We Must Forget in Order To Justify the Legalization or Decriminalization of Patriarchal Polygamy


*my opinion

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  1. Harry

    In Mormon plygville there is no concept of polyandry or equality among humans, given that Joseph Smith himself was entitled from the beginning to rule and reign over others without question, so don’t be surprised if Kody and his Ewes fail to be amused.

    The red dress was a good choice for the event as “red” has been declared taboo by the FLDS priesthood.

    Good article.

  2. out of there!

    Nothing like satire to drive home the point. An amusing way to drive home some very serious points!

  3. Christine Arman

    I’m so glad to call you my cousin! You took a stand for something people just keep to themselves about and not have the basket”balls” to say or do! This made me look at this in a whole different way. I don’t want my children to see this stuff on tv or even in their lives and think its cool or even that its ok. So thank you christine and the husbands for doing something for all the RIGHT reasons!!!!

  4. I’m so impressed with your write-up and the info. you included. I agree 100% with what Laura said. Thanks, Christine, for being such an awesome sister-advocate for women and children’s rights! You have been run through the wringer and have come out punching and shining. Stay strong and keep on going.

  5. swm I was married the old fashion way now I want to be a brother husband and live this life to be her 2nd or 10th husband tdasonwrva@gmail.com

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